We've fallen into a rut, I think. Already. This rut isn't necessarily a bad thing, but I'm bored. And tired. But mostly bored. Day in and day out we wake up too early and go to work. Then we go home together, cook, clean, care for the dog, wash a load or two of laundry, take a walk or mow the lawn, and go back to bed. It's not that we want to be boring but, with Hub's long work hours, there isn't time for much else.
As for work, there are some good days and interesting days here, but usually it's just a typical office job for me. Nothing fancy. Nothing exciting. The hours I spend sitting behind a computer are unhealthy but it's what I get paid to do and, although this job isn't my first choice, I enjoy the business and the people. Hub loves his job and his business, but he also feels ridiculously tired and often overwhelmed most of the time. I wish I could take some of the weight off his shoulders, but how?
Worst of all, we rarely go to bed at a decent hour because there is always something that needs to be done. We can't seem to catch up. Since moving here, we've had trouble trying to balance work and home and quailty time together. Like I said, the long work hours are taking the biggest toll. On weekends, we usually find ourselves running around the state visiting friends and family. Having a day off -- a day to stay home and sleep and eat and actually focus on all the things that are still undone in our new home -- is basically non-existent.
And sometimes I realize that we feel this way now but we don't even have children yet. How does a married couple add children to this busy, on-the-go lifestyle? Is it even possible? How do we slow down?
I've tried purposefully planning days or weekends in which we are not allowed to make plans. Weekends in which we are meant to stay home and focus on... nothing. But it never works. Something always comes along to ruin my anti-plans plan. And I guess you can say I feel a little negative about it.
But I'm trying to see the light. I'm trying to find the bright side and enjoy the few moments of peace that we find here and there. I remind myself daily that this is all part of the bigger picture. Part of something that I cannot foresee.
So tonight I'm going home to do a bit of cleaning and the last load of laundry for the week. I'm going to spend some much needed time with our lonely dog and I hope to squeeze in a few minutes of yoga. And I'm going to bake something. I like to bake.