i've always believed that people do not need other people. i do not need my parents. i do not need my husband. i do not need my friends. but it sure it nice to have them.
i don't know exactly how i would survive, if God asked me to live alone on this earth but, if He believed in me, i would find a way. yes, i have that much faith. all the same, i hope He doesn't ask.
despite the fact that i don't necessarily need my husband, sometimes i am overwhelmed by how much i want him. it feels like i need him, you know. having him in my life is the greatest blessing and wanting him to remain with me is such a powerful urge that i can't imagine life without him. that being said, i realize more and more every day how lucky i am to have a good man -- besides my awesome dad -- in my life.
hub and i have plenty of tiffs and disagreements. we're far from perfect and we don't always see eye-to-eye but, the point is, we try. marriage is hard, kids. have i mentioned that? marriage is possibly the hardest thing i've ever done. besides the obvious things, like arguments, there is always a fear of losing the person you love most. sometimes i even fear that he'll just get plain sick of me and all my silly quirks and his feelings for me will change. although he always assures me otherwise, i think it's a natural fear. like i said, i know that i could live without him but i'd rather not.
sometimes i think we (humans) must be crazy to choose to be married. why torture ourselves? but marriage is also amazing. marriage means committment, which is a trait that not many possess. "for better or worse" is the key. marriage also means allowing someone to commit to you; to want you so badly that he can't imagine life without you; to trust that his committment will not be broken. like i said, it is hard, but totally worth the effort. it is great to have a best friend and even greater to live with that person. trust me. i know.
i love marriage and i love my husband... endlessly.
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